finals - 12/1/2025

yay!!! finals week!!!!! (i have a gun in my hand)
i literally cannot explain how cooked i am for my calc 1 exam like i think i might have no choice but to switch to business (joke). anyway thanksgiving break made me feel like SHIT and i don't even know why. it's just such a bad place for a break because there's always exams right after and i can't focus on studying if i'm at home hanging out with my cat... like wtf... i also think i'm getting too used to my antidepressant dose so i have been #contemplating some things.. some of which are not so good but #weball. i think i might ask if i can get my dose upped or something #wellbutrinwarrior
but yay i've finally been able to sit down and update my site!! i gave the home page a much needed refresh and revamped my journal page so that (hopefully) i can keep updating it more frequently. with uni i am so fucking busy but i feel like having an outlet is really helpful i just literally never think to use it which is dumb. me when my academically challenging major is academically challenging #AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!
oh also i have a job in a research lab now which is super cool. i always just tell people i'm curing malaria (in jest) but in reality we're looking into some possible dna replication mechanisms of falciparum plasmodia to see if it might be a good drug development target. i mostly do pcr and run gels and make lb media but it's pretty fun :P anyway i feel awful so i think im gonna shower and maybe lay on the floor for some time

work - 6/3/2025

i have been working so much that it's not even funny!!! i got a summer job at the bank and oh my god it's a lot more exhausting than i thought it would be. i enjoy some parts of it, but a lot of the time it's so monotonous that it just makes me frustrated and super drained. i mean, it's generally been kinda fun though. just something different for me to do instead of sitting at home waiting for the fall semester to start. unfortunately, work has consumed so much of my life that i don't have much else to talk about here ;_; i had my graduation party this past sunday and it was pretty fun! there were some parts that were mildly upsetting but it was a pretty good turnout and i think the decorations were super cute! other than that i guess i'm just waiting for vacation to roll around x_x i hope i can be a little more active on the site even though i'll be pretty busy!

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